homesick

hmmmm...mom call me yday nite...memalukan, i terus cry out!!! ..... guess, i really miss msia alot...can't wait to go back home.........................

shopping spree

i went to TA yday ... shop for 8-9 hours!!! ... well, of course, we did stop half way to yamcha (at Ohh La La) ... i never know that there's rm10 t-shirt being sold there-leh!!! grab a few of those ... then, i found this towel promotion ... i thought rm8 is cheap thus i bought 3 of it ... manatau, we can get that rm5++ only ... aiya ... tricked by the 50% + 30% discount !!!! and, bought teh botol too!! (in packet) ... coz, my brother loves teh ... i bet, after he drink this, he will never wanted to drink teh anymore (i hope he has the same taste bud as me).

staying put in front of the pc!!!

since i can't online most of the time ... so happen today i'm earlier than my other colleagues (who are using the pc here) ... i'm really excited coz i haven't been checking my mails for so long!!!! so, even my stomach asking me to go toilet (to purge), i'm not going ... spending every single seconds that i have to chat, check emails tooo ... .... .... .... .... ....

MONEY CAN'T BUY ANYTHING!!!!

ydya ... i have chicken for lunch (fried)... chicken for dinner too (curry)...

today ... lunch is nasi padang ... wondering, how's my dinner will be ... sigh ... who said working oversea is fun!!!! everyday ... routine is the same ... morning, wakeup early, breakfast in the hotel ... take cab to work (and .. have to give a long description to the driver coz, seems that most of the taxi driver doesn't know where's that place ... not even some of the landmark that we have told them!!!), work (but, since there's no pc for me and my colleagues, we two practically, is looking at what other ppl doing!!!), think of lunch (coz, not many places that gives me the appetite), work again (meaning, looking at what other ppl do ... mayb will help out some other mini thing), dinner time (which, also headache as not many places to eat too), wash the clothes (so damn troublesome too as the sink is not functioning properly such that it can fill the water, so damn troublesome to have the clothes dry too), iron yday clothes, read story book, sleep ... F***ing sien ... i miss astro .. miss my yamcha sesssion, ... miss my phone call conversation ... miss everything that i used to do in msia ... for that 3 figure amount of allowance (which is not even that close the 4 figure amount .. i mean, the allowance is not even > rm500) and i have to miss so many things ... NOT WORTH it ... thus, whenever there's any new comer who thinks travelling is fun .. well, dun mentioned in front of me ... coz, i will definitely say something that is so bad (to make them think twice if they wanna travel) ... well, probably, i've been in msia for so long ..and, realised that i do miss so much good things in msia when i was working oversea last time ... (i must said, i do enjoy my working time in mandiri project last time ... well, of course, that time, i have a BUNCH of fun-to-work with and fun-to-stay with ppl and we all have been "stucked" to each other for so long too)

ok ... i really been complaining alot since i'm here ....... ...... ...... ....... ....... .......

MONEY CAN'T BUY ANYTHING!!!!

MISS MALAYSIA (and my bb too)

i'm here for (DUNNO) how many days ... each day passes .. and, my heart misses msia SO DAMN MUCH!!!

i'm now ... doing nothing .. no pc to use .. some more, have to share pc with this colleague of mine ... he's doing some other thing .. while, tehre's some "EXTRA" time (which is seconds)...i'lll use this pc to write this blog ... meaning, i'm actually taking more than 15min to habis this short blog!!! ... so kesian ... coz, not enuf pc ...

yday nite ... for the first time .. i walk to Slipi using that dirty bridge ... hmmmm .. i told this to 2 of my colleagues .. and, both has the same reply ... "wah ... you so hang fook" .. meaning, i never need to go there to eat dinner ... well .. i have a senior who use to tell me that this bridge is very dangerous (that was 3 years ago), that's y, i never dare to walk there ... most of the time, i have some guy colleague who help me to bungkus ... hmmmm ... it wasn't that bad ... but, after walking to and fro ... i'm DAMN DIRTY (BUSUK too) ...

MISS my bb, family, friends, FOODS ......... :((

2nd day in Jkt

boring !!!
so inconvinient to stay in hotel!! makan and cuci also not convinient!!! tempted to buy the plastic pale so that i can wash my clothes!! the "sinki" is not filling the water too coz the "penutup" spoilt (dunno how to explain the whole thing here) ...

hmmm .. the bank here ... very very small size (though it's the main branch) ...

nothing to write ... coz damn tired and .... just came back from lunch (at 5pm msia time!!!!) ... and, to have my lunch .. have to take taxi to Plaza Semanggi ..

bye msia ... i will see u in 2 weeks time

gosh ... tonite .. my last nite in msia ... tomolo .. i'll be sleeping in some bed in some hotel in jkt .... away from my family and bf ... sigh ... bet tomolo nite .. my eyes will filled with tears before i can actually fell asleepy ... go there for less than 2 weeks (2 be exact ... just 11 days), i've prepared my stuff that is for 3 weeks trip!!! (the mee in cup, soupy snacks, milo, kuk fa, fruits) ... just so happen that MOST of my close friends (kaki to cook ... heheh) are not there else i will buy things to cook over there as well ... and that means, another bag of foods.

i read The Star yday ... guess what, Donald Trump hired a 26 year old gal (from the Book Smart team) ... just as i predicted!!!! You see, this show was co-produced by Donald Trump, and, in this BIG business world, u have the power to decide the way the show shld be. I mean, i'm suspecting some consipracy here .. just maybe .. i'm just saying-lah ... who knows, this mr D has his way of making the show look suspense, how to add some "problem" to the winning team and cause them to lose, how to plan the whole game the way he wanted .... anyway, it's a good show ... learn the businessman's theory of making $$$.

hmmmm ... i was watchin CSI today (noon) ... suddenly cross my mind that .. the shows really taught the ppl how to do crime the smart way so that no evidence to charge them!!!!

2005 2005

what so special bout this date??
well ... it's my bf birthday ... isn't it special???

last year, 2004 2004, was my another colleague's birthday ....

mine ... have to wait til the year 3012 .. sigh ...

What goes around, comes around

nothing to elaborate on the above title ...
suddenly just thought of this sentence ...

RUDE parking attendant

saw leecs blog .. alamak ... miss the old times ...
wondering why Tony Romas not here in Msia since there are chinese restaurant serving pork .. thus, shld be easy for them to go thru all the authority thing .. ok-lah .. dunno much bout the procedure ..

hui ying's blog .. talking bout her hometown .. Joey also talks bout his hometown ... me ... i don't really know bout my place here ... i bet Young Man or any of my friends would know more than me!! And, i remembered, i did do a project when i was Form2 and it's about my place here .. heheheh ... i get the information from others ...

i was at Tmn Tun in the today ... reached there at 11.40a.m. Only have rm50 with me ,.. so the indian guy asked for my car number and pay him later. So, it's 3.10p.m., i prepared rm5 for him. Guess what, he's asking rm6!!!!!!!! Not that i don't wanna take out the rm10 from my wallet but it doesn't make sense at all. Parked whole day is rm6 .. and i'm not parking more than 4 hours!! He keep saying i'm in here at 11.40a.m .. ok, yes, i agreed but it's not more than 4 hours!! .. he said, ok .. next time, i cannot park my car there .. and he was so damn angry looking at me ... i told him, great, you rather lose rm6 (or more than that) in future because i'm not giving u another rm1!!!! And, i can't do anything to make this indian guy learn a lesson here ... CAN I DO SOMETHING???!!! i told him nicely, he angrily replying me pulak ...

Love is Patient

Someone send me this ... quite long .. i'm only taking parts of it coz the original passage was like reading bible ... sorry, not trying to offend the christian..

In our fast paced modern life, we have to complete our projects ahead of competitors. We carry this behavior trait back to our family and we are impatient when we do not get our way. We expect our spouse to cater to us immediately after one reminder or two. When we don’t get what we want and at the time desired, we become irritated or angry. But being patient means allowing, accommodating and accepting the other person’s ideas, values, personality and mannerism. So we need to constantly remind ourselves: “Am I loving when I don’t accommodate my spouse’s ways? Do I show love when I don’t accept my spouse’s point of view?” We know for certain that we do not practice love at that particular moment since a loving heart is a patient heart.

Little things inevitably happen in our lives and in our homes. Misunderstanding and conflict come to every home. During such moments, we get angry and sulk. We tend to blame: Why must I suffer the hurt and tantrum? Why should I bear the injury? Why must I endure the accusation? Why should I accept the slight? But, for any family relationship to flourish we need patience to humbly resolve the conflict. And, patience means accepting, bearing, enduring, over-looking, suffering the slights, shortcomings, blame, accusation, tantrums, injuries and hurts, without retaliation. Thus we must regularly ask: “Am I spending time to patiently cultivate the family relationship? Have I been patient to grow our relationship? Do I neglect to improve our relationship because I am impatient?

In order to be able to develop this loving patience we have to learn to forgive readily and endlessly. As Mother Teresa said, “if we really want to love, we must learn to forgive before anything else.” (One heart full of love, 113) “We must make our homes centers of compassion and forgive endlessly.” (“A Gift for God”, 18) St Paul says, “Be tolerant with one another and forgive one another whenever any one of you has a complaint against someone else.”(Colossians 3:13)

But it is people we have to contend with. When people get close together, there is bound to be personality friction, for no two persons are alike. Rub two pieces of wood together, and you will have fire. Put people together under the same roof, in the same office or in the same parish or in the same house, like husband and wife, parents and children, and you will have plenty of fuel for a good fight.

A feuding married couple went to a priest for counseling. The priest sat at his desk, and the couple sat opposite him, and a cat and dog sat placidly by the desk. When the priest had finished his counseling, he concluded with these words: “Joe and Mary, why can’t you get along like this cat and dog?” Joe quipped, “Father, tie them together and see how long they’ll stay that way.”

As cars need a lubricant to keep parts that rub against other parts, like the pistons in the motor, from freezing fast, so people need a lubricant to keep them living smoothly together. That lubricant is the virtue of patience.

How often we may have thought that the people around us are stupid or do stupid things. Have you ever said, “He or she drives me up a wall!” “He or she means well, but they get on my nerves.” Or you complain, “Why they would make holy Job lose his patience.” You are really losing yours when you so think.

Then there are other people who afflict us just by their behavior. They are arrogant, self-righteous, judgmental. They look down on others, are snobbish, condemn others, spurn them, speak evil against them. Patience means accepting, enduring, suffering (that is where the word came from: patiens means “suffering”) the slights, injuries, hurts inflicted by people

A salesman puts up with all kinds of abuse--just to make a sale.
Indians used to endure frightful tortures--just to become “a brave,”
Such endurance may be laudable, but it is not necessarily virtuous.

“Love is patient,” that is, true patience must be an expression of love. It is that motive which makes all endurance a virtue. It is not what we do that counts, but why; not the mountains we move, but the motives that impel us to move them.

We need patience just to survive--for people are people. Some will be inconsiderate, some will be downright mean and selfish. And we shall inevitably run into such people. Their meanness and inconsideration could make us sad, depressed or discouraged. If we let that happen, life for us will come to a standstill. Sorrow, brings death, it does no good to yield to it, the enemy of life.

Patience, on the contrary, does not just endure hurts and injuries; rather it embraces them with love and so sucks out the venom in them. Instead of sorrow, there is joy--joy in knowing that evil has been turned into good.

Without patience we will not survive in life. I remember flying from Chicago to Kansas City one summer. It was the bumpiest ride I ever had. The wings flapped like a seal before breakfast. I thought the plane would fall apart. Later, I learned that elasticity had been built into the wings on purpose. Had the wings been rigid and inflexible, the sudden stresses and strains from wind and air pockets would have snapped them.
On their drawing boards, engineers call this give and take “tolerance.” Tolerance is the amount of stress a wing can take before it snaps.
What engineers build into the cold end of an aluminum wing, we must build into our hearts. How many homes have been broken up, because there is no tolerance---no give or take, no patience.

Like, “The Oak and the Reed.” In a mighty storm the proud Oak said, “I will not bend before the wind.” Then a sudden strong gust of wind came and uprooted the unbending Oak. As the Oak lay prostrate on the ground, it saw a tiny reed swaying in the storm. The Oak asked, “How is it that I who am so mighty have been uprooted, whereas you who are so frail still stand in the storm?’’ The Reed answered, ‘‘I give in a little to the wind.” How often just to give in, to say, “I’m sorry,” has saved many a relationship.

Patience is not weakness; it is not becoming a door mat. It is an experience of such great love that it wins over people. No person ever treated Abraham Lincoln with greater contempt than Edwin Stanton. He called Lincoln a “low cunning clown.” He nicknamed him “the original gorilla.” Lincoln said nothing. Instead, when he needed a Secretary of War, Lincoln appointed Stanton, because he was the best man for the job. He treated Stanton with every courtesy. The years wore on. The night came when Lincoln was assassinated. The body of the murdered President was taken to a little room. That night, Stanton looked down on the face of Lincoln in all its ruggedness; and, through tears, Stanton said: “There lies the greatest ruler of men the world has ever seen.” The patience of love had conquered in the end.

It is only patience that will help people become better than they are and make us better than we are.

am i T O U G H?

can't wait for this coming weekend ... my form 5 friends will be having bbq to celebrate my friends bday (2 person bday) ... hmmm .. tak ada camera .. else, can take pictures this sat nite ... ai ...

like my bf .. who enjoys the outings/time with his 2 closed friends .. me, enjoy the time spend with this group of friends. Probably, i'm with them for so long liow. Lately, especially since last year .. mayb we all are getting older ... hehehhe ... we love to organise outing ... the more the merrier too!! with their son & daughter coming along!!!

ok .. back to above .. am, i tough gal-ar?? ... hmmm .. just some sudden thought as some1 thinks i'm tough gal who is able to handle my emotional problem better than a guy-wor. however, i would much prefer if some1 phraise me for being tough to handle my work, job, responsibility, etc problems.

BIG ppl meeting, small ppl QUEUEING

ai ... there was this NAM meeting today and if i'm correct, the meeting was at Putrajaya. However, i just don't understand why so many roads in KL were closed ... ai ... poor us who has to work in the morning ... just because they are meeting, we have to stuck in the traffic for so long. Can't they all make use of the video/phone conferencing-ar???

However, i still manage to reach KL (near MYDIN .. previously is Metrojaya) from Kepong within 40min (and, usually, need an hour!!!) .. how i do it?? .. SMART-leh ... hehehe ... nah, just turn this road and avoid some road, and, voila, i've reached my desitination.

mission accomplished

finally ... managed to bring grandma to melaka to visit her sisters and brother (after so many years of not seeing each other) ... and, hmmmm, now only i get the whole story correct!!! (about her family background) ... well, shld thanks my bf for spending his precious time (imagine that you are in your hometown, yet, you are out of home most of the time!!!to teman a bunch of ppl whom you don't know and only know your gf and gf's grandma???!!!).

talk bout this short trip .. wow ... as i was entering this coffee shop (my grandma 3rd lil sis's family business) with my grandma, i look at each of my relatives (they also knew i'm looking at them) ... yet, none of them recognise me and my grandma!!!!!!! lagi teruk is that they ask me to have a seat at a certain location coz they saw me holding an old lady who is weak and they thought i need that place as it's nearer to our standing place ... aiyo .. until when we are 2 metre in front of one of the relatives (i greet her as Nasi Lemak YiYi coz she sells NL), then only she realised who we are (eeee .. actually, she recognise my grandma .. she tak tau me siapa!!!!!!!! coz they all said me look lain liow-wor) ... then, it's like a reunion moment for them!!!!! Besides this, another moment that i find it very touching would be the departure moment after the meeting of my grandma, her 3rd lil sis and with her 2nd lil sis .. i saw tears from my grandma eyes (... curi-curi tengok, also see my 3rd Yee-Poh also mata basah ... and, 2nd Yee-Poh already ada tears from her eyes when we left her home).

hmmm ... not a bad trip, at least i was in good mood most of the time though sometimes there are certain things that i find it so troublesome and wondering why am i putting myself into all these situation when i can enjoy my weekend at home. anyway ,..., i'm very sure that i hate to have the feeling of regret ... knowing that i might be going jkt very soon and knowing that i wouldn't know where will i be in future(will it be like last time, touching msia ground not more than 4 days??!!) ... it's better for me to take her to melaka while i'm still in msia coz if i don't do so, i will definitely feel regret when i go oversea and this feeling will slowly caused depression and will affect my work. I hate oversea for so long coz coming back for such a short period is not enough for me to do so many things .. and thus, i won't go for any gathering or yamcha or go office(unless, i'm in msia more than 4 days) ...

"dunno what to put here as title"

i was driving this morning (as usual) to work ... ai .. same time as yday and the day before yday ... yet, this morning, lagi macet. When i reach 1U (that is after 15min from the TOL .. normally, it took not more than 5min) ... so frustrated ... i HONK!!!! hahaahha ... that was good ... the cars around me got a shocked ... dun care-lah .. i'm frustrated liow ...

then .. when i reach my bf place ... after breakfast ... on the way to kerinchi link .. Whitney Houstan song "I just wanna dance with you baby" (forgotten the title) was play ... i just sing along ... and move a bit ... hahahah ... there's a lorry bypassing me on my right .. the passenger (a malay guy) was looking and was "kacau"ing me (how to say the word in english-ar?? .. can't think of the appropriate word for this action) .. i was so tempted to show my famous middle finger (..||..) but stop coz this will caused him to further "kacau" me ... so, i just show an ignorance impression (u know, like u dun really care bout his action) back to him and then stop looking at him and continue my singing (which is so not good .. and i guess i'm the culprit behind the cloudy weather today ... :)) heehhehe) ... anyway, my car really stop there for few seconds ... and ... i saw this white proton iswara (can't remember the plat number .. but starts with W) ... open his door ... and, spitted .. YUCK .. so gross ... and, he's chinese (his face sure looks chinese -lah)

street smart vs book smart

i was watching TV when i saw this advertisement ... that gal who scored 17As for SPM last year (i think the so-called genius student) ... well, she's in the pencil advertisement ... hmmm, what are they trying to portray here?? the pencil helped this gal to score so high??!! is she being asked by her parents to do this advertisement to earn that money??? anyway ... i must said, i'm quite envy this gal for being such a genius but then, think in another way, ... well,(1) she's quite "kiasu" for taking so many exams & trying to score more 'A's than others (in other way, can say that she's capable to achieve her objectives) . (2) she's indecisive because she needs to take so many subjects in order to know what she really want to do in future (however, can say that she has the advantages of having lots of choices) . Hmmmm .. is there any conspiracy-ar?? We are living in this country where most of the things is "berat-sebelah" to the "majority". Though there are registration number to represent us during exams, database can reveal the details of this registration number owner. hmmmm .. i can't really go straight to my point here coz takut ISA (is it ISA who is in charge of this?) will lock me for talking bout sensitive issue here.

back to the above title .... the Apprentice will be showing this competition between a group of ppl who has lots of certification fighting against the group of ppl who already "cari makan" on the street. i bet they will somehow choose the person from book smart team to win coz they can't send the message to public that education is less important. There will be a preview this Sunday ... can't wait to watch it (forgotten the showing time liow).

my TALENT

that Q&As-ar... one of the Q : asking my talent ... now, make me wonder what is my talent ...
i wonder if my friends know my talent-ar??
it's like the question during interview, asking for my strength and weakness .. and i can tell thousand of weakness but only 1 strength ...

unpredicTabLe!!

was late going out from house yday and this morning ... yday traffic was very macet and i was late by 15min but today, i reached my parking area here 10minutes before 9am ... the traffic is ALWAYS unpredictable!!! but then ... this morning, i was driving at 80 - 90 saja-lah .. unlike most of the time, i'm speeding zig-zag (which i don' really enjoy lately coz it makes my heart beats so fast that i thought i'm getting a heart attack .. "choy, tai ka lai si")

why i'm so damn boring in office today-ar??!!! i've been having this kind of boringness most of the day in a week!!! yeah yeah ... there was one email from some superior ppl .. part of the email said that "if can't change the environment/ppl, change yourself" ... i did try to change to being able to "go with the flow" yet, i'm turning myself into a very quiet person in office. Where's the laypeng who used to move around, from floor to floor, from one side to antoher side, from cubicle to another cubicle ... who used to talk a lot ... who used to smile a lot ... who used to encounter alot of funny situation ... all these ... GONE .. the environment has been "tagged" to be the quiet, serious mode ...

i was so boring that i started to read other "unknown" people's blogs ... i do find alot of them from USA .. and there are some who actually make the blogs as a place to advertise too ... so far, none of the blogs seems to be able to get me to read at least longer than 1min except one blog whom the blogger is a married lady with kids and caring hubby and there's a passage about her birthday celebration (not more than 5min .. and click next blog) ...

Q & A .. from Joey's from Soo

hehehehe ... saja mau answer

1. Name? Tee Lay Peng
2. Were you named after anyone? YES ... after the great Tee Lay Peng ... hehehe (ok, mayb not funny) .. my dad said that my great granddad wanted my name to be Lay instead of Li/Lee/Lai and Peng instead of Ping
3. Do you wish on stars? oh ...i love to say .. "Star light star bright, the first star i see tonite, i wish i may i wish might, to have all my wishes granted by tonite" (a slight change from me .. heheh)
4. When did you last cry? yday nite when i think of what i might not be around this weekend for Mother's Day and might not around for my B bday, not around to attend B's bro wedding, etc things that i can't do because i'm might not be around
5. Do you like your handwriting? HATE it coz so "cakar ayam"
6. What is your favorite lunch meal? So many in my mind now ... Itallian foods!!!!!! at Itallianis SS2 (i think i have the name correct) .. they have set lunch ... cheap!!! Chicken Rice at ... eeee .. dunno SS apa pulak .. some where near TARC PJ
7. What is your birth date? Dec 30th
8. What is your most embarrassing CD? apa sih CD? Compact Disc? Civil Defense? (i got this from dictionary)
9. Fav flower? tulip .. if it's still has its root on the ground .. else, after few day(s), no longer look nice
10. Do you use sarcasm a lot? nope ... but, sometimes, i'm blur that i might say something sarcastically without realising it later
11. Would you bungee jump? NO WAY
12. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? Same answer as Joey Tan
13. Do you think that you are strong? NOT strong physically
14. what is your favorite ice cream flavor? Vanilla and Strawberry
15. Hot chocolate or ice cream? Ice cream!!!!!
16. Red or pink? Pink
17. (not available)
18. Last person you ate with? myself coz my dinner at home usually sitting in the living room, with the plate (rice and veges & a bowl of soup) and watching tv. Unless i'm back at home as early as before 6.30pm then there will be my sis and mom-lah.
19. What do you see outside your window? depending which window i'm seeing ... hehehe ... anyhow, whichever site i'm seeing, i'm still seeing my living area
20. What color pants and shoes are you wearing? I'm at home now, thus, wearing shorts and no shoes
21. What are you listening to right now? my tv is showing AXN's Maximum Exposure .. and it's showing explosion now ... so, i'm listening to some explosion sounds
22. Last thing you ate? Peanut Butter with Gardenia Bread
23. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? can't decide as i like yellow, white, sky blue, pink
24. What is the weather like right now? I don't know as it's 3.40am in the morning and i don't dare to open my window to look outside...moreover, can't really see it also ... but, it's too hot in my living room that i switched on the standing fan as well
25. Last person you talked to on the phone? my bf of course
26. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex? My eyes tend to look at everything (wider coverage ... heheh) thus too many things for me to notice
27. Do you like the person who sent this to you? No1 send this to me-lah .. me kepoh, saja copied and answered it (i'm supposed to do some coding for my boss but stop to surf net)
28. Favorite Drink? nothing particular .. but if morning, i would love Teh Si
29. Favorite Sport? hahahah .. same as Joey Tan (when i just wokeup and will be doing that during the first 15-30minutes) ... frankly ... i rather be a couch potato
30. Real hair color? No idea .. colored it before .. now, doesn't know it turns out to be what color
31. Color of eyes? No idea
32. Do you wear contacts? Nope
33. Favorite Food? Banyak dong ... anything that smell and taste good
34. Last Movie You Watched? Pacifier .... hmmmm ... have been watching alot of movie lately too .. i'm looking forward to watching Madagascar .. a cartoon ...
35. Favorite Day Of The Year? the eve and during my birthday ... hahaha ... so many wishes (that is also because that i remind everyone it's my bday)... and, of course, the few days before CNY ... heheheh ... with the CNY songs ...
36. Scary Movies Or Happy Endings? Happy Endings of course... Scary Movies during very good mood and knowing that i'm not sleeping alone (don't want to ended up wearing long sleeve and long trousers after watching Jun On)
37. Summer Or Winter? Summer ... can stay in the house with a/c and cool drinks ... winter ... toooo cold and have to wear so many clothes that ended up looking so HUGE
38. Hugs OR Kisses? hugs from friends, hugs and kisses from bf
39. What Is Your Favorite Dessert? Banana Split!!!!!!! but then, joey intro me Banana Bread Pudding ...i like it, probably because there's combination of ice cream and banana (hehehe .. like banana split) ... hehehe .. it's YUMMY
40. Last concert you saw? Leon Lai..10 years ago(i think)
41. Last book you bought? Microsoft CRM ... and ... didn't read more than half of it!!
42. Songs you listen to over and over again? nothing that is particular now .. but i used to listen to David Tou's "Ai hen jian dan", Stephanie Sun's "Turn left, turn right", Stephanie Sun's "forgotten the song title but it's before the MOMENT album and this song, not many ppl listen to it .. it's a slow sad song", SHE "You're always on my mind", ... few more ... mostly chinese songs ... and these were all when i'm in jkt ...
43. What Did You Watch Last night on TV? I was wathing CHARMED just now
44. Favorite Smells? tasty foods ... hehehhe
45. Most memorable vacation? hmmmm ... each vacation is memorable in its own way ... the very last one i had was with my form 5 friends at genting ... hehehe, same old way of vacation .. that is, gamble & liqour ...
46. Rolling Stones or Beatles? Beatles coz i only know their songs
47. Furthest been from home? as long as i'm not going for vacation (must be a wonderful trip!!) else i'll definitely feel far from home ... like my last trip to Korea (2 years ago) ... aiyo, i already miss home (is it because i can't use hp over there-ar?)
48. Do you have a special talent? hmmmm ... kepoh is a talent-ar? hhheheheh
49. What is your ringtone? song by Siow S with another guy call "lien ai da ren"? (can't recall the title)
50. Are you gonna repost this for other people to do? if u r interested ... just copy and answer-loh ... btw, is there anyway that i can send the question thru blog to other's bloggers-ar??

Habis ... it's almost 4am!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sigh .... i hate it when i'm damn awake

S T A B I L I T Y

this word has been on my mind especially starting from early this year ... and lately .. boy, i do feel i'm like a ball being kicked around (i'm likely will be talking bout my work most of the time)

perhaps i don't understand bout management and business ... yet, bosses are humans too .. rite??? i mean ... they too have family and friends ... i too have family, friends .. and of course, my "debate partner" bf (heheheh) ... who don't understand why i have no ideas what is my plan!!!!!! sometimes, i really wanted to tell them that i know where i will be at a specific time which i can't coz i have no idea where i will be tomorrow ... i'm just a bit frustrated because i couldn't answered my bf, dad, mom, sis, bro, grandma, uncles, aunties, cousins and closed friends when they asked "When i'm goin to Jkt?"/"Will i be around during this and that day?"

... Mother's Day is around corner (and, all these years, even though i was travelling, i really managed to plan my schedule ... of course, i have a bunch of teammates who so happen not goin back for mother's day & my ex-boss who seems to agree with the schedule and at such, i can go back to celebrate Mother's day every year), BF's bday is around the corner (gosh .... any idea what shld i buy-ar? ... hehehe ... b, let me buy air-cond!!! so that you'll be working comfortably in your rooms 24/7 ... but then ... when u move out .. have to spend money to shift it ... hmmmm .. i'm the weirdest gf .. who can think of buying things that my bf will used ... like hp battery ... hahahah), friend's wedding is around corner (may, june, december ... who has purposely informed me so many months ahead such that i'll be able to attend her wedding) , Father's Day (same as mother's day ... just so glad can celebrate every year ... and, believe me ... when i told my family & uncles that i might be goin oversea again .. they decided to wait til i'm in KL then only have dinner together as a way to celebrate ... so "kam tong") ... and my gfriends ... i really enjoy cho ti with them ... heheheh ... gan said that the more he sees my friends the more he noticed that there's similiarity on how we talk and react ....

money may be the most important factor to keep a person to stuck in the same situation ... but, would it be a little too much if the person is just asking for some assurance/exact schedule?? how come the way ppl do business is to impress the client in what-so-ever (meaning, doing whatever things to make the client happy) way such that he'll be able to win the business??? Is there any company out there who have this strict rules (for eg, i only will assign 5 person for 3 months only .. and not more than that) and if rules are not complied, no business??

i think .. a company shld have a committee/a person to in charge of counselling the staff ... or at least, a person who knows what the staff really needs. Coz bosses tend to think that all his/her staff is their slaves who shld sacrifice everything for the company. Come on-lah ... there shld be give and take. Workers doesn't just sacrifice ... it's the responsibity factor that keeps a worker to do his work .. not because they think they are slave.s And, yes .. responsibility is something from a person within and not something can be paid... even if some1 is earning less, they will also show their responsibility at work. But, too continue having the constant & same amount of responsibility and also contant productivity (mayb an increase too), they shld be given some rewards such that they feel that there's some appreciation for all their hardworks. and, hardworks .. don't calculate the amount of brilliant work that a person has done ... there shld be some uncountable work that shld be calculated (for eg, a person can actually don't answer the phone calls from clients who is asking for support because that phone is not a support hp). Besides rewards ... a sense of appreciation and also respects shld be given to the staff too.

and ... after talk so long ... y i'm still here??? ... lets just put it this way-lah ...
assume this job is my husband ... i'm trying to make it a long-lasting relationship even though sometimes feels like the hubby is not giving enuf "elaun" (hahahah) ... and hubby is having alot of other "gorgeous" (geniuses) lady that it's so hard for this wife to outshine and thus, sometimes, feel like being "dumped"aside ...