i've been to the SLIM world before

hmmmm .. tempted to put my pic here ... but, afraid some unknown ppl will look into it ...

i was browsing my pictures .. and saw one pic that was taken on year 2003, Dec .. that's my slimest moment .. i showed it to my housemates ... they toooo, can't believe i used-to-be that slim ... gosh ... my current size, can't fit into that same clothing :(

just with extra 5kg on me .. and i look so different liow ..... how on earth i can shed off this 5 kg-ar????????

working env is surrounded by complicated ppl

if u r new to this project and places, ok, i don't mind if u don't know about the rules and force me to take cab (even though i was at the lobby earlier than you and i was in the list for that driver) ... however, you are repeating for the second and third day... i'm not the person who will just keep quiet ... i'll be sure comment bout this coz why should i be taking cab if i'm there earlier than you .. some ppl are just not that smart enough to know that they are affecting other ppl's lives!!! even worst is that, they have some seniors who are also not smart enough to comment them!! those seniors also don't care about it and knowing that me and some others will take cab ... nia seng ...

shit ... i think my monthly auntie is coming soon ... else how to explain my bad temper!!!

then ... my another guy junior ... sigh ... i think i have to teach him the word RESPECT ... and also TEAMSPIRIT ... what's the point of me giving out the task if he's not even responding to it ... i'm going to have a little chat with him this weekend in order to be able to work together. he seems prefer to finish my boss task than my task (my boss gave him 3 days after my task and my boss not aware that i've given him some task) ... obviously, this is what i call Mr Bodek!!! ... and i hate this kind of ppl ... me and my another gal are busy supporting users, whereas, he's just doing some easy task (ok ... maybe to my standard, it's easy) and worst is that he has time to chat with other ppl on google and also talk about non-work related (eg, insurance) ... if i have to depend on him to backup me if i'm not around, i must really admit that i can't and afraid to do so and which is why, i'm so scared to be sick coz i can't depend on him to backup me!!!

sickening situation

sick sick sick

sien sien sien

i hate so much to be sick ... especially when i'm about to go back Msia ... it's really wasting my time and energy !!!!!

i think it's like virus spreading the sickness .. everyone seems to be sick .. either coughing / flu / sore throat / everything ... like bird flu symptom!!!!

if i don't feel good esok, i'll just MC even i haven't see a doc to get a medical leave cert!!! .. i've worked every single day (except sunday) since i start sick last Fri!! ...

love really is blind

almost every month also sick ... either is the working env or the surrounding env itself ... ate alot of veges and varieties also didn't help much ...

i'm just curious why guys (or people in general) will go after another human being who is good looking in appearance?? the appearance really matters alot ... i have 2 lady colleagues who is so happy going and fun to be with (just like me when i was at younger days .. kekekekekek) yet i have to say, not many people can see their beauty. another lady, who, alot people felt that she's gorgeous ... hmmmmm ... attitude wise, i know she's good .. i'm just commenting on the appearance ... just because with some simple make up and wear pro office wear and being very ladylike, and she manages to catch alot of attention ... how come guys are so blind??? can't they see the other 2 who have natural beauty????? kekekekekke ... i'm very confident i have that ... muakakakkakaka ...

people like me and that 2 ladies ... will not experience the love at first sight ... but, i believe they'll find their true love among their friends who eventually will become their soulmate .. love at first sight, no longer works ... love someone based on appearance, won't last long coz it's a lust ...

i have to rush my work again ... trying to finish my work and some testing before i'm goin for lunch and then cabut back to aprt coz i don't think i can tahan till end of day (with my current sick condition) ... not that i'm pretending to be hardworking ... just that, there are a lot of work and i've predicted my another junior is absent (due to sick tooo .. and my prediction really turns out true coz he actually called up to say he's on medical leave) and my another junior herself can't do so many thing at one time and so happen, i've studied that portion before ... thus, no matter how hard, come as early as possible to finish it ...
yet ... i'm writing this blog ... kekekkeke .. okok ... better start my work ...

reschedule cutover and WHOLE FAMILY have to reschedule things

one thing i hate the most about traveling is that we can't plan our schedule ... we are SLAVE to the project timeline!!!

i really don't mind working like a shit throughout weekends (well .. a smart project management with smart project timeline, then i will not have to work like shit ... kekekkekek .. indirectly i'm saying that i'm a smart worker :P ) ... just that i'm not at malaysia, i have to plan ahead of all my things so that i will use wisely that few days (VERY VERY very short moment) at malaysia .. just because of some bad lousy management plan, the cutover date need to be reschedule ... and guess what, ALL MY SCHEDULE THAT INVOLVES WHOEVER IN IT HAVE TO RESCHEDULE ... wow ... and, i'm even more piss off because that date is still not firm ... omg .. it's January and cutover suppose to be in 2 months time but no1 can confirm the date ... i've plan my things 3 months ahead!!! and i have to reshedule things ....

so fucking hate my current state of situation

one manager was telling me that i'm a fierce women ... muakakkakakakaka

well ... that manager ain't know me yet ...

2 double 0 7

shit-loh ... i'm reaching the figure 3 liow ... :((

i can still remember that i was still new to the project begining of the year, then it was CNY time, then i work like a shit for one month (still remember first time cry while working in a local project ... and the cause is that i'm being used to do things that wasn't my responsibility and being left all alone to figure all the things out ... and at that point, i realised that i don't need anyone to help coz i'm born to be superwoman ... muakakakkakaka ... okok ... actually, i just need my phone to call for help), then holiday at Bangkok, then work like shit for 2 months, then came the news that make me feel as if nobody aware of my job scope and my good work (heartbroken and disappointed), then came the opportunity to do different things and i realised that .NET is not hard to understand (kekekekeke .. actually, it's easier for me to understand and modify an existing system than to do things from scratch), then came the opportunity to step out from what i've been doing all this while and to do a TOTAL new module, then the rest is history

in appraisal, i was asked about objectives ... gosh ... i mean ... i don't set objectives coz things happen suddenly ... my understanding of "objective" is that, you set if u know what's goin to happen and u want to set some rules/guidance to have your desire end result ... but, i was suddenly told to HELP OUT in one project and wasn't given a job scope .. and, you are telling me that at this kind of situation, i must set some objectives????

now ... being in a new team .. with new job scope ... still not setting objectives coz my mind now is just thinking to get back to malaysia ... i know i know .. we must set objectives for our job ... but ... my mind is only thinking to get back to malaysia and it's this thought that has been keeping me on to work like shit over here ... and, thinking back, as I expected, i do learn more here than back in KL ... not to say work in KL won't learn anything, just that the system has stable and is at supporting stage ... whereas here, it's the whole SDLC thing ...

anyhow ... my new year resolution (I NEVER HAVE ANY RESOLUTION) would be : -
1) try to save as much as possible ie not to simply buy things

2) find a new job that i DON'T need to travel and get to enjoy my weekends peacefully OR remain same company but with different job scope such that i will travel less (as in 1 - 2 months coz there's no such thing as NO traveling at all).

3) get myself the "suntikan rubela" (don't know how to write in english for this)

4) a trip to Taiwan coz i wanna try the foods there

5) a new car by end of next year that is after my brother found a stable job ... if possible, maybe honda jazz, yet i really like suzuki swift but heard some comment that swift smaller than jazz. anyhow, will look for the one that i can drive my grandma to genting coz currently, my bf's car is not in good condition to drive to genting.

6) take my grandma to melaka again ... this time, will book a hotel coz it's troublesome to leave her with relatives who is staying at apartment with no lift!!

7) treat my family (if i have enough money for that month, i will include my uncles' family too) to LobsterMan (http://www.lobsterman.com.my)

8) learn to think throughly before commenting coz i've experienced a number of time that i always regret with my comments

9) try to lose 5kg so that i'll look gorgeous year end :D ... kekekekkeke ...