to express one gal's feeling

she had to learn how to swim in this wide open sea
struggle all by herslef and alone
she yelled for help to no avail
had to make use of whatever survival skills
if drown, she will die
if float and swimed to the land, she should be happy that she survive
she should feel proud
coz she have learned all the swimming method
yet ... unfair is that other person get rewarded and honoured
the so-called trainer will be phraised
you're the trainer yet always try to "snake"
only think of your own sake
always talk big and not talking sense
just sitting there waiting for others status report
worst is that ... SHE CAN'T VOICE OUT