another complain

frustrated!!!

well .. this is another of my complain blog ...

gosh ... i must name this as laypeng's complain corner ... yeah .. i shld do so ... will try later

when ppl need my help ... i'll be there ... when it's not my business, i'll just be there (u know, in case maybe my expertise and knowledge will be needed) ... yet, guess what ... those ppl at KL just sleep soundly / rest peacefully without care about my concerns ... i'm really so fucking fed up ... i just sms u guyz at 10.40pm for a simple question, yet there no reply...here i am, sick and trying to finish my work yet no1 bother ... fuck off all ... that's y, ALWAYS BE INDEPENDENT AND RESOURCEFUL AND DON'T HOPE FOR HELP FROM OTHERS!!! that's the lesson i've learnt (and always knew), just that, this time, i miss calculated something and i'm left with nothing i can do to finish my work..thus, my dear colleageus (my boss said my gm loves ppl who don't complain non-sense-wor), not that i don't want to voice out anything (coz i will find solution myself, no matter how hard it is) just that since i've experienced working at KL and now at JKT, i've learnt that IT'S POINTLESS TO VOICE OUT.

at the end ... i can't blame anyone .. blame myself for not being independent and resourceful enough (even sick, also need to work ... sigh ....) ... i hate this working world ... too full of selfish ppl and ppl who only know how to talk big and ppl who are so fake.

friendship definition

how you define friendship??

do you need to meet everyday??
do you need to call each other every now and then??

it's weird. i've seen right in front of my eyes that you thought you know this person well and you treat the person as friend yet just because you seldom keep in touch (the way that this person wish to .. i dunno .. maybe need to meet each other all the time?? :P ) and this person treats you like stranger .... it's more complicated than love relationship ... i'm happy that i still have a bunch of friends whom i don't normally meet nor call and yet we can still be friends. am i lucky or what??? they even understand my situation when i explained to them y i can't meet them for gathering/wedding dinner. love them so much for being understanding.

dunno what title to put

too tired ... wish so much i can take one whole month leave by staying at home and doing nothing ... yet, knowing after a month holiday, i will not be able to catch up with my other teammates ... said i'm kiasu or what-so-ever (must learn how to don't bother what other ppl say or think about me)... i'm a bit kiasu , yet i'm also a lazy bum person ... i don't do things just because i have to ... i prefer to do thing when i want to (depending on my mood). I can be so damn hardworking at one period of time, yet i always find opportunity to snake :P.

i have this colleague (super senior ... boss level... his name is J***) ...i must learn how to be like him ... he's very steady when handling things. even there's big issue, he can be so calm to handle it. he also don't bother other ppl things if it's not related to his