sotong's COMPLAIN corner

You will either like me a lot or you wouldn't know me at all. "Beauty" lies in the eye of the beholder. heheheh

Thursday, September 28, 2006

i'm the super gal!!

i must be some damn superb gal!! else, how to explain why i'll be asked whether i wanna go when there's project that tak cukup orang?? another explanation to it is that ... i'm toooo goody-good!! knowing that i dun have a strong point to say NO. I'm like the fire extinguisher ... when there's a emergency, i'll be there .. but, when there's any promotion, like real life, the fire extinguisher will not be included and will be forgotten soon ... until ... there's another emergency

even worst is that ... when u step your foot in there .. u can't come out ... so sad ... so sad ... my life, all tumbling down just because some other ppl mistakes in managing ppl!! ... i have to sacrifice my life for company that doens't recognise me ... and .. those ppl whom i've helped, didn't even thank me at the end!!
1)your work and i dunno anyhting, yet i have to stay late to understand and solve your problem or at least find out the root problem so that you know how to solve the next day ...
2)your job scope and it's not my job, yet i keep getting call from other company who seek for information coz you dun wanna entertain them and i have to help out coz you dunno what i've done previously (lame excuse)
3)you are the better skills than me (company recognise you), yet you don't understand my simplest program??? (another lame excuse)
4)tricking me to into something that you know you need me to backup you when you are ask to travel/doing some job that you don't like

kns ... i dun want any increament nor phraise nor promotion anymore (afterall .. what's the point being included in the next round of promotion when i'm not included in the first round ... u know .. i'm STILL the second best thing!!) oh gosh .. i'm so damn disappointed with the current trend. the trend now is this : u die, ur pasal ... u ada problem, ur pasal ... ... Turning myself into a person that i no longer care what the heck the management will think of me. in fact, i'm reluctant to help anyone ... really .. what's the point of me doing so?? i'm only getting myself into deeper hole!! moreover, when i need help, will they care to help me?? i still remember the feeling of begging ppl for help ... it SUCKS!!

and the most important thing is that .. i NO LONGER WILL KEEP SILENCE ... i'll make sure everyone knows i'm frustrated even though i'll be causing eveyrone around me tulan ...

oh ... y wouldn't i just resign and get another job?? ... thanks to my 2 years in msia!! .. the experience i gain is mainly about knowing abit of this and abit of that ... there's no definite speciality nor expertise which other people really need!! thus, forcing me to go back to my main root to gain more skills coz other company doesn't want me to be in their company to learn new skills as normal developer even i have lower down my salary!! and, i can't even spend extra time to do my own studies coz i've been busy working as fire extinguisher and almost burn-out!! all the hardwork, causing me to rest EVEN MORE when i have the time.

Wednesday, September 27, 2006

the beauty of writing

i was reading 2 of my friends' blog ... hmmmm .. like "monkey" said, "cow" has come to the point of expressing feeling/thought into writing whereby it's full of "maksud tersirat" and not anyone can understand ... :P

wish i could do so too ... then, i'll be able to talk bad of someone in writing without worrying anyone understand what i'm writing .. muakakakaka .. so bad of me ... can only thought of this ... hehhehehehe

that's y ... to be a great philosopher, one should start talking and writing in the sense that nobody will understand the key point... hehehehehe

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

DOWN down ... up UP UP

omg ... i'm easily getting pessimistic nowadays ... where have all my happy-go-lucky attitude gone? why i'm no longer easy-going gal? why i'm no longer having the "take it easy" attitude? why i've been thinking & analyzing a lot? why do i complain alot? why do i so easily get irritated?

when little things ain't goin the way i want OR
when unfairness happen around me OR
when i've given so much but no1 knows but myself

i'll get upset and keep complaining. That's what i do .. complain to forget bout the unhappy things. I really must forget and ignore. It's not really doing me any good. That's it!! Let me regain my energy by stepping back.

Lets enjoy some of the Sun Tzu's Art of War ... we really can implement these in real life

There are five essentials for victory:
(1) He will win who knows when to fight and when not to fight.
(2) He will win who knows how to handle both superior and inferior forces.
(3) He will win whose army is animated by the same spirit throughout all its ranks.
(4) He will win who, prepared himself, waits to take the enemy unprepared.
(5) He will win who has military capacity and is not interfered with by the sovereign.

Hence the saying:
If you know the enemy and know yourself, you need not fear the result of a hundred battles. If you know yourself but not the enemy, for every victory gained you will also suffer a defeat. If you know neither the enemy nor yourself, you will succumb in every battle.
By discovering the enemy's dispositions and remaining invisible ourselves, we can keep our forces concentrated, while the enemy's must be divided.
Move not unless you see an advantage; use not your troops unless there is something to be gained; fight not unless the position is critical. If it is to your advantage, make a forward move; if not, stay where you are. Anger may in time change to gladness; vexation may be succeeded by content.

I'll pamper myself this evening with delicious cheese cake :D

Oh .. the title of my blog .. it's actually means that i'm feeling down down down .. but, i will soon feel energetic again

Friday, September 15, 2006

wedding dinner is profitable?

wedding wedding wedding

i've received alot wedding invititation .. some from my close friends and some from NOT SO CLOSED ppl (see .. i'm using the word,ppl and not friends ... unless we have been in the same project for those colleagues or u r my school friends .. school = college/secondary/primary). I'm really funny coz i did ask a colleague to invite me to his wedding coz i wanna meet my previous project-mates (like a gathering). kekekekeke

The first question in your mind is who should u invite? But would you invite the whole world knowing that they won't attend and the venue wasn't big enough either!! My gosh, like a tactic to profit from this event. Or maybe that person really too happy and excited and that he just wanna share his happiness. Only god knows. Anyhow, i sincerely wishing them a blissful marriage and i'm not attending :P

but for me, i'll be sure inviting those who have invited me to their wedding last time ... so sorry bout that coz knowing that we weren't that close now (after long time of not contacting) yet i have to invite you :P ... (u know, like chinese saying .. "ada datang, ada pergi")

Friday, September 08, 2006

d BEST of what one can do

Motivational speaker Art Linkletter's quote:


Do a little more than you're paid to do;

Give a little more than you have to;

Try a little harder than you want to;

Aim a little higher than you think possible;

And give lots of thanks to God for health, family and friends.

I wanna add "Expect a little less than you hope to get." :P (the higher your expectation, the more you felt the disappointment)