sotong's COMPLAIN corner

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Monday, December 18, 2006

finally ... (NOT FINALLY)

finally ... i've been waiting few weeks and it's my time back to my Msia!!!! Yet, it's not the FINAL trip back to project site ... sigh ... i will just hold on ...

it's funny ... when i was junior, i seldom questions my seniors if they are goin back to msia frequently or they get to have long holidays @ msia or they get special treatment ... yet .. juniors nowadays, they don't seem to agree if seniors/PM/teamlead get to have more priviledge than them ... juniors nowadays, have their own perspective ... probably, having TOOO MANY juniors at one time not a good culture coz all tends to group among themselves and to generate their own thinking according to their likings. If some seniors get to mix with them and not telling them the truth & logic and keep pointing the bad of the teamleads/PMs ... there goes this young juniors ... their mind has been "corrupted"!!!

Next trip back, i foresee i'll have to work every single weekends. It's has been a routine that i'll wake up early (even during weekends) to prepare my breakfast & lunch (what to do ... there ain't much good food to eat around my working area and it's damn hot outside too). If it's weekend, i'll be goin to supermarket (early @ around 9.30am) to grab all ingrediants to cook during weekends and weekdays. After supermarket, will goto office. But, i try not to over exhaust myself. I will cook when my body can wake up early to cook :D.

i realised that a lot programmers don't really know how to write and speak proper english ... but, i salute those (who don't really know how to converse well in english) who dares to write and speak ... even myself, english educated, still making a lot of grammar mistakes in my writing ... must brush up!!!

Saturday, December 16, 2006

woosah woosah woosah again

i'm so damn angry!!!!

and i'm making sure whole office know i'm so damn fucking angry!!!! ...

i can't believe it ... the whole projectmates can just left me to take cab even after i've told them that to wait for me!!!! .. all because there's a miscommunication between one person and another person and that those ppl don't even thought of calling me (reason is ... tak tau my number and wanted to save money!!!!) to check if i'm goin with them!!! and ... weird is that i've written my name in the list that is working at 10am!!!

so fucking angry!!! ... and i know my temper has caused ppl around me scared of me ... dun k ... i'm angry and it's not my fault ... i can't help myself to show my angryness!!!!

i've been always a good projectmates and never selfish too .. when there's a car ... even those ppl ask me to keep a place for them, i'll be sure to keep a place for them ...

ok ... my time to woosah woosah ... must cool down coz i've been spending money to call ppl to release my tulaness .. and also been wasting my time to cool down that i have not been tracing program!!!

Monday, December 11, 2006

40% increament si boh

hahahahahha muakakakkakakakakka

the civil servants asking for a 40% increase in their salary because the reason is that their productivity level has improved and the stated example is that passports can now be ready within 2 hours. That's such a lame excuse!!! Passports can be done within 2 hours is because they cut down all the red-tapes and less processing time ... not because they increased their productivity. ... like this, we ppl at private section also can seek for 40% increase-loh ...

anyhow, i agreed that they said they haven't get any increament since 1992.

THE CLEAR MOON SITE

dear Soo, i like your comment :
"Its hard to feel how one feel, we can only interpret it based on our own experience. Everywhere when you look at the moon, it looks almost the same but maybe on my side its look more clear as today morning it rains heavily hence the sky is clear. On your side the moon is shrouded by clouds hence its blur at the moment.

If you are a driver you look at the view in front of you with different perspectives compare if you are just a passenger. As the driver the view in front is possibly an obstacle to get the passenger safely back home. As for the passenger, they will look at the view as a piece of lovely landscape on their way back home slowly dozing in and out of sleep...... "

For me ... i will do whatever to make myself to see the clear moon (either i'm really at that side, or i'll just have a picture in front of me :P ). Usually, i'll just opt for that picture. My ex-gm once sent me an email stating that if one can't change the surrounding to suit us, we have to change ourselves to suit the environment. Indirectly, i'm interpreting it this way :
"If you don't like what's goin on around you, either u think of something, maybe the bright side of all the bad things, such that you'll feel better. OR, get out from the situation."

I'm the type who loves to complain and express my thoughts into word (either verbally or in writing, without thinking twice of the consequences) so that i can release whatever that are in my mind. And, most of the time, it will just gone away. However, it's just hiding some where deep and when it reach a certain of limit, it will burst out again. Maybe it's my way of control and some may disagree coz it's still "hazardous" as i'm not solving the problem at all.

One day, some day ... i'll find get myself to the side where i'll see the clear moon .......

Thursday, December 07, 2006

tulan nia seng ham ka ling!!!

so frustrated!!!

again ... they are testing my patience ... ppl work so hard the whole year, just to enjoy the year end celebration and CNY ... yet ... no matter how much a person sacrifice ... at the end, still can't enjoy coz customer is the priority. i only can say that i can't assure my productivity!!!

fuck ... i really must find another job in kl ... not that i don't like my company .. i totally enjoy the freedom and enjoy working with my colleagues (and also from my another company's colleagues) and i still have plenty of things to learn ... yet .... this time really testing my patience ... probably because i'm a homey person, thus, i love and enjoy being with my family and friends and love ones during the BIG day ... is that too much to ask????

not that i ask to work overseas ... my gosh .. i practically come here because there's no1 available to come here, it's a good environment to pickup skills (though .. it's so damn fucking susah to learn) ... that's all ... nothing about money at all (coz i earn that much here .. i spend that much here too)

i will ask my parent and bf for their opinion ... because i don't want to stupidly resign before i manage to find another job